Monday, February 23, 2009
An Apology
First, thanks for the encouraging words from Archz and Huxley. I realised I made a mistake therefore I'm very sorry. Huxley may blame me for other reasons but I know I definitely shouldn't have done what I had done. You definitely have the choice to do whatever you see fit.
So once again, I'm very sorry, zX. m(_ _)m
Posted by Kairyu at 10:16 PM
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Who Can You Trust
Someone asked me what I regretted doing in my life after reading my previous entry. Well, no one will love to wash their dirty linen in public but I'm just going to mention just one of them. I hope someone will understand too.
There's a slang people say about having tea with police. I had tea with them once. Once was enough. Well, I didn't go clubbing till I was 18. I was working part-time during that time and I lost my wallet too. I had a replacement letter. My colleague invited us to join them to enjoy the music and being curious that time, I decided to follow him. We went Zouk. I couldn't get in as they couldn't accept my letter as proof. I decided to go home but my colleague told me to try to smuggle myself in a crowd getting in. Being foolish, I tried. It failed of course and I was arrested. My parents had to come to pick me up after Zouk decided not to pursue the matter. After returning to work the next day, I got the greatest humilation I got in my life. The very colleague who came up with all the ideas said I was just plainly 'suay' and was laughing at my ordeal. I quitted the next day.
Therefore I draw a clear line between colleagues and friends. I will look out for myself and not allow my colleagues to affect my decision. Colleagues are not obliged to help you unlike friends. I cherish my friendships more than anything.
Posted by Kairyu at 1:48 PM
Friday, February 20, 2009
How You Hold
I was thinking of something mentioned to me last night. I kinda pondered over it on bed too.
Some people say if you hold on to sand tightly, you will end up losing more sand than you had. I agree on this point. But if you think on a different perspective, what if you are holding on with one hand? We have 2 hands. Will that mean we are doing things 'half-heartedly'? What if we use both hands to cup the sand? Will that mean we are doing our best?
I hope things don't turn out to be as bad as it is now. It's been quite an emotional week for me...
Posted by Kairyu at 4:26 PM
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Protect? Possess?
Am I being too possessive? Or am I just being too protective?
To be honest, I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate myself for not doing my exams well. Twice. I regret what I had done to my life. How I wish I can travel back in time and undo those stupid actions. Living on regrets may make people stronger but they are indeed bad memories. Memories I would rather not have. At all.
That is why I keep reminding those around me to think twice and consider well before making any decisions. Urge those juniors to study well and not follow my footsteps. Pay caution to people you might learn outside or at work. Learn to say no to things that don't benefit you at all. Most importantly, be rational and know there are people that care about you.
I can't deny people might feel I'm trying to control their lives or making choices for them. But frankly, I'm just reminding out of goodwill and concern. I'm the type that if my friends are walking into a mine field, I will warn them. You can ultimately make your choices and decisions. But I hope you make the best ones. I'm a living example of regret and I don't want those I know to follow suit. This world has too much regret to begin with...
I would like to thank Huxley for your compliment about my English. Yes, I'm from ITE. For the record, you are the 1st person that complimented about it. (^^,)>>
Posted by Kairyu at 9:38 PM
Brotherhood
Well, I guess this term gets to be used for a lot of situations. But how do we define a person as a 'brother'?
Best friends are so called 'brothers'. They look out, take care and trust each other. There should be no room for lies and hesitation.
Talking about brotherhood, the expansion for Grand Theft Auto IV is coming in later. Well, it's also a story about a brotherhood of bikers which get into trouble with each other. I think I will get it at a later time.
Posted by Kairyu at 1:39 AM
Monday, February 16, 2009
Who Needs Who
You know it's kinda stressful and tiring when you must juggle 3 games at the same time. Street Fighter IV just recently came out and I had a good time enjoying every possible bouts I get. Then recently, everyone went into Left 4 Dead and of course, I followed suit. Finally, I'm neglecting my characters in World Of Warcraft although I tried to squeeze some time playing. My solution? SFIV then WoW then L4D. Reason? Simple. If there are no challengers on SFIV, there's no point staying on LIVE. I could play my WoW while waiting for everyone to be ready for L4D then resuming it after the shootout.
Everyone work for the sake of earning money. In some cases, work requires teamwork which means interacting with colleagues for the sake of work. And in some cases, colleagues react with each other just for the sake of learning or passing time. We also interact with colleagues after work. But then, in such circumstances, are we really interacting with each other or accidentally meddling with each others' personal lives?
Well, it's not that we can't learn new friends through work. But the same thing applies...there are good and bad people around. We must be able to judge for ourselves. Therefore, it's important to know who are your friends and be rational.
Posted by Kairyu at 2:26 AM
Monday, February 9, 2009
You Can Finally Run
Well, I don't know it was going to be that fast but my pet rabbit passed away at 3pm today. Few weeks back, we had noticed it had difficulty standing up and it was getting thinner although it was proper fed. We all felt its time was up.
It was just 2 rabbits given to my sister as a birthday gift 10 years back. The other rabbit had passed away much earlier. This rabbit was strange. Typically, rabbits love carrots but for my pet rabbit, it loves apple. Everytime, when I cut a half of an apple or a whole, it would eat so delightfully. And I enjoyed the times feeding it its pellets one by one. And it would stomp its foot when it was seeking attention. But now, they will be just memories.
Seriously, I don't like the feeling of losing a loved one. But it's fate. My tears will only last for tonight.
I don't know if you will know it but we love you always. Sorry for not giving you the freedom that you seek. Now you can finally run to anywhere you want. It's been nice knowing you, White-White-To...
Posted by Kairyu at 10:28 PM
Monday, February 2, 2009
It's Time To Do Something
Well, this entry is more or less a reminder to myself. It's really about time to start the plan. No point admiring or envying other people and doing things that only satisfy for a short while. I can also be like them. They are just living examples that I can refer to.
I can make a difference. I will do something! ^^
Posted by Kairyu at 9:51 AM
